Hey friends. I’ve been pretty much AWOL for almost a year now. If anyone was really following this thing, I do apologize.
I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching and thinking – or at least, I’ve been attempting to.
For almost a couple of years now, I’ve been at a loss for what to do in my life. I keep waiting for that big “Aha!” moment to come around, but it hasn’t.
I’ve gotten glimpses of it now and again. Last year, I went out and about for a six month traveling stint and thought I would “find myself” and “follow my heart” and yadda yadda yadda.
That didn’t really happen, but I did find space to clear my head and learned a little bit about this huge world in the meantime.
Since then, I’m back to my roots in Iowa. I’ve been working a couple of different jobs on and off, joined a great band as the lead singer, and I’ve been working on my photography.
But still, after a year of being back, there has been no “Aha.”
You see, I’ve been spoiled most of my life.
I never used to have a problem with finding a direction because my heart really did lead the way. I wouldn’t have to think about making decisions because I would just know. However, as of late, something switched inside of me. My head took over. Rather than going the direction in which my heart led me, I would spend hoursdaysweeksmonths trying to find it.
And at the end of the hourdayweekmonth, I would still have no clue.
But what I realize now is that there is no single answer to my life. Maybe I’m not finding anything or coming to any conclusion because whatever conclusion there is to be reached is not inside my head. It’s waiting for me out there, every day, everywhere I go.
It’s time to stop thinking and start doing – or at least do a little of both.
I’m on a quest to put my head and my heart back in communication.
I don’t have a direct way to do that, and I’m constantly confused about what I’m most passionate about.
But I do know that what I think about every day no matter what is my photography, the world through my eyes, what I’m capable of creating, and various ways to share these creations with the people around me.
I don’t have a precise plan, but I have ideas which you will hopefully be seeing the beginnings of in the coming months as I continue to write, photograph, and develop.
I spend my life looking for beauty, finding the forgotten, and reveling in the little wonderful things in this world.
And I hope I can articulately share that with you.
More to come in the next few days.